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Showing posts with label Amelia Vandergast. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Amelia Vandergast. Show all posts

Wednesday, 17 May 2017

The Sequence Of Hatred and The Impact on Mental Health Sufferers

I'm going to use this week's theme of sequences to explore what no body really tells you about OCD.

Before I begin, let's nip the illusion that everyone who is clean and tidy is suffering from an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and point out the fact that by throwing the term around, you're actually harming the real sufferers of OCD.

Not every sufferer of OCD has to turn a light switch on and off a certain amount of times, or wear the same jacket each time they go to Tesco. OCD can manifest itself in ways that we could never imagine. I once knew a girl who everyone thought was crazy, she was openly mocked within her social circle for thinking if she hadn't heard from someone in a while that they were dead, but this is all part of her OCD, all of these emotions were real for her. Imagine, not hearing from a friend or relative for a while, and then getting an overwhelming feeling of dread and frantically trying to reach out to them, and not being able to rest until you know with absolute certainty that they are alive.

It may be hard to accept that reality doesn't always have to go hand in hand with rationality because everyone experiences the world differently. No two realities are the same and the sooner we realise that the sooner that stigma over people with mental health issues will end. All too often OCD is overlooked and not even considered as a mental health issue.

I've seen an amazing level of acceptance spread for sufferers with anxiety and depression, yet mental health is more complex than a label we use to categorise human beings with.




The truth is that OCD can be debilitating. The mind can obsess over anything macabre, your very own narrative of horror replaying in your mind in infinite repetition. Some people even fear that they're psychotic, and they will end up killing the ones that they love. It's no wonder people with mental health issues often become alienated. This is just one of the reasons why mental health stigma is a killer. OCD sufferers are often regarded as freaks, just because people fail to see life through the eyes of someone that's suffering. This is the sequence of mental health stigma that allows people to become ostracised and ultimately too afraid to speak out.

People who suffer with OCD and any other mental health disorder need social support to recover, because the worst thing that could happen is for the person suffering to stigmatize themselves, thus completing the self-fulfilling cycle of hatred.

Thank you for reading, Amelia Vandergast

Wednesday, 8 March 2017

Facade

The tilted chin. The flattering light. The hours spent contouring your face to perfectly refract the light disguising the imperfections. The moles, the scars, the bump in your nose that makes you all the more adorable vanish. We're veiled under Instagram filters until we look like a plague of Barbie dolls that have fallen into line and into a time where we no longer look like ourselves. 

It's all just smoke and mirrors, a grand illusion to disguise us in imitated beauty.

But there's so much more that the internet can't see.
 

The eyes are the window to the soul, so why are you looking so hollow, so gaunt as you contort your lips into a garish pout. Imploring the camera with your glazed over come to bed eyes then complaining at the attention. The hateful torment. The creeps come in droves, they've fallen hook line and sinker for your facade. The radiant being that stands before them. But that's not you, is it?

 


The person that has a smile so iridescent it outshines the stars, the world doesn't get to see the wrinkle that forms in the corner of your eye that never fails to capture my heart. The lines at the side of your mouth when you laugh with raucous vivacity. 

Because we're not allowed to get old. Princess Leia wasn't allowed to get old. We're supposed to find this illusive fountain of youth. Just to appease the youth that doesn't realise soon enough they'll find themselves counting their wrinkles, just as we, tracing treasure maps of time across our faces. The laughter lines that remind us that there's still time to laugh more, to live more. And not shy away from the camera, not wielded by our own mortal hand but in the hands of a lover, or friend.

Wanting to capture the beauty, the vision that they see.

I'm hoping it's just another millennial craze that will fade away in time, with the over sized garish eye brows, fake tan and cocaine. I won't hold my breath.

We used to despair when we'd ask children what they wanted to do when they grow up and they'd reply “Famous!” Now we're contending with adults whose life goal is to become “Instagram Famous”. How empty must they feel? Knowing that those that love them, wouldn't love them if they were real.

Warts and all, they aren't going to be there for them, to catch them when they fall. When they fall of the side of a cliff taking the perfect selfie.
 

Forgive me for being rude but I'm more interested on what happens in front of you. See, you've been rather naughty, I'm talking to you selfie addicts. The kids that passed around a dolphin until it died, the kids that think it's appropriate to take a selfie while they're in Auschwitz. Contrary to popular belief, it still happened, even if you don't have a selfie to prove it.
 
Amelia