Stretford, 1958, me, my mum, my nanna and my great grandmother, Nanna Polly grouped together for a family photograph on the doorstep of Nanna Polly’s house. I can remember being shuffled about to place everyone exactly right, and wearing my beautiful dress made by my other nanna. Our four generations, never to happen again, which makes the photograph all the more special. Nanna Polly passed away the following year then ten years later my mum died which broke the links in the chain.
It has been a year of everything being placed on our
doorstep, quite literally. On a personal
level, Covid 19 changed the way we live and the way we shop. We’ve done grocery
shopping online for years. This has increased to the, butcher, the baker, the
candlestick maker, or that’s how it sometimes seems.
The first lockdown brought me fear and worry as we stayed at
home, shielding from the outside world. One day, there was a wonderful surprise
that started with a message from our niece.
“I bet you a million pounds there’s a shoebox outside your
front door.”
What? Of course, I went to look. On the doorstep was a
shoebox, with a note wishing us well and hoping we enjoy the contents. It was
jam packed – including jam – with all the tasty goodies to put together an afternoon
tea with lots of extra treats.
I was overwhelmed. Our niece, a busy NHS frontline worker,
adored by us all, had gone to such trouble to make us this fantastic gift which
was very welcome. I didn’t see her or hear her drive away. What a special lady,
our angel. I think she made one for her mum, too. If you’re reading this, Jo,
we salute you.
Good old Amazon, I couldn’t have managed Christmas without you.
Day after day, another parcel delivered and placed on the doorstep as I
organised gifts for the family and planned some sort of socially distanced
Christmas Dinner at our house.
I’m the only survivor of my four generations. I’m in awe of the strength of character my
nanna and great grandmother must have had to endure two world wars and all the
hardship and heart break that life threw at them. Both of them lost children in
infancy. My great grandmother was only twenty-seven when she was widowed and
lost her five year old daughter all within a fortnight. I’m proud to be standing on that doorstep,
surrounded by their love. I hope they’ve passed some of their northern grit
down to me.
I found this poem by Thomas Hardy,
The rain imprinted the step’s wet shine
With target-circles that quivered and crossed
As I was leaving this porch of mine;
When from within there swelled and paused
A song’s sweet note;
And back I turned, and thought,
“Here I’ll abide.”
The step shines wet beneath the rain,
Which prints its circles as heretofore;
I watch them from the porch again,
But no song-notes within the door
Now call to me
To shun the dripping lea
And forth I stride.
Thomas Hardy, written in January, 1914 – and I wanted to add, ‘Yep, out you go!’
(If you remember the photo, apologies for using it again, though it was ages ago.)
Thanks for reading, stay safe, Pam x
