Procrastination

 

“Never put off until tomorrow what you can do today.”

A statement attributed to Benjamin Franklin, and one of my dad’s favourite sayings. I’m not sure if he lived by it, but he was a busy man for most of his life and was always doing something. He made lists, meticulously handwritten on plain paper folded into three. He never used lined paper and it was always folded that way. Items were crossed off with one neat line upon completion. Unfinished tasks would be carried on to the list for the next day. This was likely to be, ‘Write to Alan’. I don’t think the delay was procrastination as much as it was waiting for the right moment. Alan was his brother and at this time would be living in Virginia, USA. The letter, when it happened, took time and lots of thought until it was perfectly paragraphed on to a couple of sheets of thin, pale blue, airmail stationery. These days, they would be emailing across the Atlantic, but my dad missed out on such communication. Anyway, letter written and crossed off. I don’t remember him ever losing his list. No, of course he wouldn’t. Not pedantic, but certainly a perfectionist.

Maybe I should take after him more and keep a list. I’d be less likely to put things off until I genuinely forget. Like the room upstairs, the attic and the shed. Oh, I think I’ve just listed everything. Thank goodness it’s not written down.

I’m sure I’ve mentioned our damp-proofing before. It happened in the summer and lots of things got packed up and stored upstairs. Those things were added to when more remedial work was needed. The original plan to paint walls and put the house on the market was and still is delayed. We can’t possibly need everything. I haven’t taken one thing out of a box since they were put away in June. Downstairs is quite spartan – I put a few books back on shelves, a priority – but we are preparing to move. I decided to sort the boxes out before Christmas and make the spare room look less like hoarding.

A much better idea was to shut the door on everything, go and spend some quality time in Dumfries & Galloway and enjoy a pre-Christmas break. That’s exactly what we did.

We came back in December, in time to put the Christmas tree up and a few festive bits in the front room. From the loft I called down to my husband, who was on the landing, that I would get round to sorting the ‘jumble sale’ out in the New Year and that it’s ridiculous, as is the spare room and the shed. I’m married to a wise man who wouldn’t see the need to remind me of how many times I’ve previously mentioned it.

Procrastination. That must be me. We’re in the New Year now, so I’ll see how I get on.

My Haiku,

I’m making a list
And it’s quickly grown too long.
My ‘need to do’ jobs.

More space is needed,
I must sort out the loft room.
I’ll do it next week.

And empty the shed
Of the accumulated
Packaging mountain.

PMW 2026

Happy New Year to all. Thanks for reading, Pam x

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The Joy Of Stationery

I firmly believe the world is divided into two types of people: those who get so excited by the sight, smell and feel of new stationery that they could quite happily spend a few hours wandering around Paperchase, stroking silver fountain pens, sniffing ink and trying to convince themselves the forty nine pristine notebooks they already own need just one more to complete the set; and those who are quite puzzled by all of the above and regard a pen and paper as a means to an end: a shopping list, a note to the delivery man, a recorded phone number.

 

Needless to say, I'm firmly in the former category.

 

My one abiding memory from my first day at school is of the smell of the multi coloured crayons, nestling in a pot in the centre of the knee high table.  That waxy smell stayed with me all through school. It was the scent of excitement, of creativity, of pure happiness, and that never changed.  I don't know whether those crayons influenced my career choice, or whether I was drawn to them because I was already feeling the stirrings of an artistic future, but opening a box of them for the grandchildren instantly transports me back to that first day at school and the excitement that lay ahead.

 

When I was sixteen I went to France for two months, between 'O' Levels and 'A' Levels, supposedly to improve my French. I stayed in a Children's Home, up in the mountains, away from all other civilisation: Nobody spoke English, there were no houses and only one shop within a 10km radius. The shop, bizarrely, sold stationery and nothing else. I can remember, quite clearly, setting off alone for the shop, on a rare free afternoon, my mind desperately seeking a reprieve from the stomach churning home sickness that had enveloped me since I'd arrived.

 

The shop was tiny and dark and packed with notebooks, envelopes, pens and pencils.  I was eyed suspiciously from behind a huge stack of cream paper but I didn't care, I was in heaven and I had few centimes to spend.

 

I still have the notebooks that I used as diaries. Their tiny squared pages are crammed with writing so small that I struggle to read the words that tell me how sad I was to leave behind the children from the home, and how I cried all the way down the mountain on the first leg of my journey back to England.

 

Visiting my parents this weekend, my dad beckons me over to his desk. 'You know where this came from?' he asks, as he does each time I'm here. He holds up a 'silver' propelling pencil. It's a rhetorical question. We both laugh. Of course I know, it came from the only shop on a French Mountain nearly fifty years ago.

 

It's been lost more times than I can remember, turning up down the sides of sofas, under the piano, at the back of a drawer. Its sides have worn smooth with use, it produces writing rather more shaky than when it first landed on dad's desk and it's worth far more to both of us than the few centimes it originally cost.

 

'That' Propelling Pencil

Progress

Blue crayon skids across the newsprint

A shaky sea slides in, sky looks down shyly

Pencil, gripped in clumsy fist,

Makes the first markings of a giant

M for Mummy, for Me

Letters firm and neat, joined up, 'Real Writing'

Pencil swapped for coveted ink pen

Stories spring to life

Across a page with margins and feint lines

Happily ever after?

The end?

The humble pencil is no longer

the sharpest tool in the stationary cupboard

Tablets rule

Ok??

 

Thanks for reading,    Jill 

 

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