written and posted by members of Lancashire Dead Good Poets' Society

Showing posts with label wilderness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label wilderness. Show all posts

Tuesday, 24 July 2018

The Best Decade - My 1960s

I like to write historical fiction. I get a lot of enjoyment from researching specific eras. There is so much to learn and I never tire of it. I’ve spent a long time, in fits and starts, on a project that begins in the early 1960s and I’d love to see it completed, though it may have to stay on the back burner until I am able to dedicate more of myself to it. I expected to be retired by now, me like many others, and I planned to treat my project like a full-time job and see if it went anywhere. Let’s wait and see if I’ve still got a functioning brain by the time I get my pension.


I’m choosing the 1960s as the best decade that I have known and I’ve chosen through personal experience and not my research. I was born in the mid-fifties into a wonderful, close family of strong minded women and hard working men. I appreciate how fortunate I am to have had the love, security and grounding of a decent up-bringing. I’ve always been mindful that not everyone is so lucky.

In the mid-sixties we moved to Blackpool. Life got even more exciting. My parents had their dream pub on the promenade and clearly loved it. South Shore beach became my playground, with my younger sister, buckets and spades and either our mother or our adored housekeeper, Auntie Kathy to look after us. We watched the whole world from our upstairs windows, holiday makers dashing off the beach as a storm came over the sea, silly hats, illuminated trams and gangs of what my dad called Beatniks. As soon as the illuminations ended, that was it, Blackpool prom died. The winter view was one of an empty, bleak wilderness, but it was fascinating watching the waves come over the sea wall and crash on to the tram lines during a fierce gale. If only I could see it all again, but thinking as an adult now, I would be worried about the rattling sash windows blowing in. The summer of 1968 is still my favourite, even though my mother embarrassed me by telling singer/songwriter/busker Don Partridge how much I adored him, as we were being introduced. He didn’t seem to mind but I certainly did. He was in the Central Pier show for the summer season and we, that is me and my mum, were front of house guests and back stage guests on separate occasions. I was enthralled to hear him sing ‘Rosie’ and ‘Blue Eyes’ live on stage and I still love those songs. We had a summer of shows and meeting people including Engelbert Humperdinck. He was headlining at the ABC theatre. I was speechless.

My poem is an old one of mine, written with love for those bygone days. It reminds me now of a late friend, Christo Heyworth. When he read the poem, he told me that the ‘grumpy deck chair man’ could have been him, though, as I said at the time, I couldn’t imagine Christo being grumpy.

 
This Was My Blackpool In ’68.

Taking a tram from North Pier to Starr Gate.
A summer of fun and staying up late.
This was my Blackpool in ’68. 

Anne, Auntie Kath and me, all holding hands
Crossing the Prom to get on to the sands
Where the grumpy deck-chair man always stands.
This was my Blackpool in ’68. 

We were young ladies with panache and style,
Playing the penny arcades for a while,
Frittering our spends on the Golden Mile.
This was my Blackpool in ’68. 

Spinning the Waltzers three times in a row.
Make it go faster, we don’t like it slow,
And then the man said, “That’s it, off you go!”
This was my Blackpool in ’68. 

Out to a summer show, straight after tea.
Engelbert tonight at the ABC,
A back-stage delight for my mum and me.
This was my Blackpool in ’68. 

Got to get ready, there’s no time to lose!
My trendiest outfit is what I will choose…
A pink mini dress with bright orange shoes.
This was my Blackpool in ’68. 

A time of peace, love and Flower Power,
Charlie Cairoli and Blackpool Tower,
Seaside and sunshine for hour after hour.
This was my Blackpool in ’68.

Pamela Winning,   2013

Thanks for reading, Pam x

Thursday, 21 June 2012

Jambo Mwana

22:06:00 Posted by Damp incendiary device , , , , , , 3 comments
Living in the now, the present moment; mindfulness - that's the advice for spiritual fulfilment.  So why do we dwell in the past?  Why relive pivotal moments, in various states of re-imagining, going over the details.  We retell our stories, framing our lives and bringing our character into focus each time.  Some stories go round in our heads, a sort of self-speak, circling like birds of prey and reminding us of something crucial or something we've yet to understand. 


My grandad tells his stories again and again and again.  Stories of his part in the war for the most part.  Occasionally he speaks of his first wife who died young.  Sometimes he speaks about fishing.  Mostly though, he goes over what he saw and what he did during the war.  Many of the stories aren't pleasant but that doesn't stop him bringing them up at parties.  Round and round and round the stories go.  I think it's because there are some actions that you can't justify, can't make peace with.  You can tell those stories again and again but some events are so dark that they scar your consciousness permanently, rendering you unable to live in the moment, always drawing you back to the past. 


Today I visited my grandad, along with two of my sisters.  He told us several stories, moving between fantasy and reality, dwelling in a liminal space between civilization and the wildnerness.  We tried to steer him away from the darkness and into some memories which we could handle.  The poem below reflects one such story.




Visiting Grandad

"You saw a giraffe in the road once, right?"
Wild eyebrow's hooked, a glint of something lost.
"It was hard to see in the thick twilight
At first we thought we were seeing a post.

By the side of the road, so tall and straight.
Kenyan night creeping in like hyenas
Our truck throwing up a cloud in our wake
Soldiers' eyes struggle in lush arenas

Lions watching with their eyes like emeralds
Flies whining at the scent of sweating pores
Whistling Thorn speaks to strangers of reverance
Grasses boast mambas and jackals and boars.

Giraffes still surprise, alone by the road.
Were you there?" "No, it's a story you told."