written and posted by members of Lancashire Dead Good Poets' Society

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Tuesday, 15 April 2025

A Favourite Poet - Too Many to Mention


Poetry books are in abundance on my book shelves and bedside table. I love poetry. I love words, artistically shaped into meaningful phrases. I wish I had the talent to do it better and I keep trying, but I think I peaked some time ago. My head is packed with stress and nonsense which I hope will eventually spill out and evaporate, giving me back some clarity and concentration, and something to write about.

As for choosing or having a favourite poet, for me, it’s like music and depends how I feel. They all have a place.

I suppose we all start as children, learning nursery rhymes and progress into poetry from there. My first poetry book must have been A Children’s Garden of Verse by Walter de la Mare. It’s a slim, hardback, well-used and dog-eared, still knocking around my house somewhere amongst my saved children’s books. I enjoy sharing books with the children at school. I often choose something that tells the story in rhyme, like Dr Seuss and ask the class if anyone can guess what word is next. I like to make it fun. I’ve borrowed a poetry book for children by Michael Rosen which my elder grandson enjoyed. I recently introduced him to my poem about Blackpool Tower, written a few years ago. He was arguing about when it was built, how long it took and I couldn’t convince him that it was less than a hundred years, so out came the book with the poem in it. I read the poem out aloud, not letting on that I’d written it until the end, when I showed him the name. Now he knows that I’m a published poet, I might have gone up in his estimation. I’m not just Nanna, who makes delicious muffins.

When I was a child, we had to learn poems or verses off by heart. It was part of English and usually set as homework to recite to the class. No escape. Here’s a favourite,

From Home-thoughts From Abroad by Robert Browning.

Oh, to be in England
Now that April’s there,
And whoever wakes in England
Sees, some morning, unaware,
That the lowest boughs and the brushwood sheaf
Round the elm tree bole are in tiny leaf,
While the chaffinch sings on the orchard bough
In England – now!

Later it was Shakespeare’s sonnets and Chaucer’s Wife of Bath from the Canterbury Tales.

My fondness for Dumfries & Galloway began with a visit to the birthplace of Robert Burns when we were on holiday near Ayr. Our first stay in the area was never going to be enough and over the years we may have traced his steps from Alloway to Ecclefechan and back again many times, visiting his various homes and his resting place in Dumfries. I wrote this some time ago,

You captured my heart with your words of romance,
I would have embraced you, if given the chance.
We might have been lovers and perfect soul mates,
What a shame I was born two centuries late.

John Betjeman, Simon Armitage, Maya Angelou and Lemn Sissay are all dear to me. How wonderful to see the work of Lemn Sissay displayed as artwork on the side of a Huddersfield University wall, and another in Manchester. We haven’t met, but I feel like I know him through his life story and his daily quatrains, and I want to hug him and say, “Look, at that! Look how far you’ve come!”

I have met Manchester poet, Mike Garry. His poetry still takes my breath away and I’ve seen him many times. The first time was 2012 at the Brewery Arts Centre in Kendal when he was on with John Cooper Clarke. Mike Garry, totally different to JCC, with an equal talent that blew me away. Read him, go and see him, listen to him on YouTube.

Dr John Cooper Clarke, he’s gone from strength to strength. Punk poet in the 1970s to GCSE and A-Level Curriculum inclusion now. Clever, witty and great in concert, with all his handwritten poetry on loose sheets of paper. That’s how it was in Kendal. I wonder if he ever got my Terza Rima?

When Manchester became Mad-chester.

Those of the time embraced every word,
Listening in wonder to John Cooper Clarke,
The Bard of Salford who had to be heard.

Rapid from the mouth and skinny and dark,
‘Evidently Chickentown’, effing good,
He’s magic with words, bright as any spark.

His wholesome description meant that we could
Smell the inhabitants of ‘Beezley Street’,
Rich mixture of urban decay and blood.

Life, humour and truth, a picture complete
And painted with colourful language that
Reaches all listeners not just the elite.

So thanks, JCC, I know where I’m at,
Laughing out loud at the poem called ‘Twat’.

PMW 2012

I haven’t got a definite favourite. I’ve missed lots out and there are people I know through open-mic and similar formats who write some terrific poetry and make me want to snap all my pencils.

This is a long blog, but thanks for reading, Pam x

Tuesday, 21 January 2025

Chickens


Years ago, when I worked in an infant school, I was given the task of drawing a large chicken which was to be the centrepiece of a class project and would fill a classroom wall. I may have skills, but freestyle drawing is not one of them and I mumbled such to the teacher, who was very lovely and kind, but spoke to me like I was another of her 4 and 5 year old pupils and suggested that I try my best and might surprise myself. Hilarious, Miss! 

With good grace, and for the sake of the class who were going to make eggs, chicks, wheat and bread to be part of the wall covering, I accepted the challenge. It was difficult but my end result was acceptable in so far as it looked like a chicken, if only through the eyes of a child, and with the work of the class added to it, the scene looked like a fabulous reproduction of the story, The Little Red Hen. 

For anyone who doesn’t know, the hen lives on a farm with other animals. She looks upon these animals as friends. When she finds a grain of wheat and decides to grow it to eventually make bread, she asks for the help of her friends. All refuse. She plants the grain, looks after it, harvests the crop and every step of the progress she asks for help and doesn’t get any. The wheat is milled into flour and she makes bread. The others all want to eat some, but the little red hen refuses to share. She eats it herself with her own chicks. Through the story, the aim was for children learn about sharing tasks, being fair, being helpful and working together. The collage remained on that classroom wall all term. The Little Red Hen, my ‘wonderful’ artwork, for all to admire. Long gone.

Why are cowards or anyone refusing a dare, called ‘chicken’? There is a lot to learn about the origins and some of it is fascinating, but to give a brief outline, chickens, usually called ‘hens’ were considered to be weak, timid creatures and completely the opposite of the male ‘cocks’ which were strong and fearless. Cocky, perhaps. And from Wikipedia, ‘According to the Oxford English Dictionary, the earliest written instance of the word ‘chicken’ in the craven sense comes from William Shakespeare’s Cymbeline, circa 1616. “Forthwith they fly, Chickens,” he wrote, describing soldiers fleeing a battlefield.’

Back to the world of childhood for my choice of poems, written by Jack Prelutsky, former U.S. Children’s Poet Laureate.

Last Night I Dreamed of Chickens

Last night I dreamed of chickens,
There were chickens everywhere,
They were standing on my stomach
They were nestling in my hair,
They were pecking at my pillow
They were hopping on my head,
They were ruffling up their feathers
As they raced about my bed.

They were on the chairs and tables,
They were on the chandeliers,
They were roosting in the corners
They were clucking in my ears,
There were chickens, chickens, chickens
For as far I could see…
When I woke up today I noticed
There were eggs on top of me.

                                Jack Prelutsky


Ballad of a Boneless Chicken

I’m a basic boneless chicken,
Yes, I have no bones inside,
I’m without a trace of rib cage,
Yet I hold myself with pride,
Other hens appear offended
By my total lack of bones,
They discuss me impolitely
In derogatory tones.

I am absolutely boneless,
I am boneless through and through,
I have neither neck nor thighbones,
And my back is boneless, too,
And I haven’t got a wishbone,
Not a bone within my breast,
So I rarely care to travel
From the comfort of my nest.

I have feathers fine and fluffy,
I have lovely little wings,
But I lack the superstructure
To support these splendid things.
Since a chicken finds it tricky
To parade on boneless legs,
I stick closely to the hen house,
Laying little scrambled eggs.

                                Jack Prelutsky

Thanks for reading, Pam x

Tuesday, 11 April 2023

Struggle

Epimetheus and Pandora

“The name Epimetheus comes from the Greek god (or titan) Epimetheus (or hindsight) who was the brother of Prometheus (foresight). Together, they represented humanity.”

I read The Iliad and The Odyssey a long time ago but I would struggle to remember much Greek mythology now. Maybe worth a re-read, just to master the challenging names, even though I found lots of it scary.  Stephen Fry’s Mythos is on the shelf, looking more appealing. I’ll see. There is a reason for this.

I’m a reading volunteer at the local primary school. Actually, I’m not doing the reading, I’m listening, encouraging, praising and offering help where needed to Year 4 children, which is the 8 to 9 age group. I’m learning a lot. They don’t mind telling me what they think of reading. It’s a love or hate thing. I do my best to promote a positive love of books, stories developed by imagination and the joy of disappearing into the world created by a good author. It is lovely to meet a child who reads for pleasure. There are some struggles for me to overcome.

“I read in my head, Miss,” says the child with an open book half under the table.

“I’m sure you do, and that’s excellent, but you need to read aloud to me just for a couple of minutes while I check your progress. Pop it up on the table so I can see the words.”

Seeing the words would be good. The better the reader, the smaller the print, it seems. My glasses are the correct prescription but I struggle to see some pages and it’s hard to follow the text with a child who has a tiny voice. Then there was the stumbling over an unfamiliar name.

“Epi, Epi, Epim,” a pleading look for help. We sound it out together.

“Epimetheus. Well done!” I hoped I’d confirmed the correct pronunciation. The story was an age appropriate  Pandora’s Box. Other children also had Greek mythology stories. I’d better brush up before next time. Personally, I prefer the Amelia Fang stories by Laura Ellen Anderson.

One of my favourite poets, although he’s so much more, including writer, broadcaster and until recently, Chancellor of the University of Manchester, is Lemn Sissay, OBE, FRSL. Reading his autobiography was heart-breaking, tears on every page, a childhood full of struggle and adversity with situations which made me furious. I am in awe of him, the life he has made for himself and everything he does for the benefit of others. Out of many, I chose this poem,

 Let There Be Peace

By Lemn Sissay

 

Let there be peace
So frowns fly away like albatross
And skeletons foxtrot from cupboards,
So war correspondants become travel show presenters
And magpies bring back lost property,
Children, engagement rings, broken things.

Let there be peace
So storms can go out to sea to be
Angry and return to me calm,
So the broken can rise up and dance in the hospitals.
Let the aged Ethiopian man in the grey block of flats
Peer through his window and see Addis before him,
So his thrilled outstretched arms become frames
For his dreams.

Let there be peace
Let tears evaporate to form clouds, cleanse themselves
And fall into reservoirs of drinking water.
Let harsh memories burst into fireworks that melt
In the dark pupils of a child’s eyes
And disappear like shoals of silver darting fish,
And let the waves reach the shore with a
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 



Thanks for reading, Pam x

Thursday, 17 March 2022

On A.I. Our Modern Prometheus

"Learn from me, if not by my precepts, at least by my example, how dangerous is the acquirement of knowledge, and how much happier that man is who believes his native town to be his world, than he who aspires to become greater than his nature will allow."
                                                                            Victor Frankenstein, moments before creating his monster.

If everything on this phenomenological plane can be said to be predetermined, and if every dominant species that has ever played master to the planet were given their own recorded timeline – represented visually, let’s say, on an abacus – then it might just be that this small but ambitious bead of humanity has long since departed from its starting position and is now arriving at its dead end. The idea that we are mere moments from the point of termination is hardly a revelation to anyone these days. Those with a religious intuition have been prophesising of this for centuries, and as atomic scientists unveil the doomsday clock, it is revealed: we are at one hundred seconds to midnight.

It is not clear for anyone whether the apocalypse upon us now will amount to total annihilation, or is the brutal but necessary dismantling of the old ways that will beget our resurrection. I acknowledge the latter option is an anthropocentric notion– and therefore, possibly deluded - but I won’t deny it’s the one I’m crossing my fingers tightly for. The truth is that all remains to be seen. Irrespective of which camp you belong to, pessimist or optimist, there is enough going on all at once these days that it is not a stretch for any of us to believe the world as we know it will end at any minute.

In the preface to her book, 'The Origins of Totalitarianism', Hannah Arendt writes that "desperate hope and desperate fear often seem closer to the centre of such events than balanced judgement and measured insight." She essentially identifies certain groups of people: "those committed to a belief in an unavoidable doom" and "those who have given themselves up to reckless optimism" – and advocates that it is better we find ourselves in neither group, but rather analyse transpiring events, as well as those on the horizon, as realistically and objectively as we are able to.

To honour Arendt, I will attempt to be as realistic and objective as I can possibly be. I will do my best to place my quiet optimism to one side, whilst also refusing to play the fearmonger – as popular as it is to do so these days. Of course, I make no promises I’ll succeed.

Hannah Arendt’s book was first published in 1951, and was written in the wake of two world wars and the uneasy anticipation of a third. She elaborates that "this moment of anticipation is like the calm that settles after all hopes have died … never has our future been more unpredictable, never have we depended so much on political forces that cannot be trusted to follow the rules of common sense and self-interest – forces that look like sheer insanity … there prevails an ill-defined, general agreement that the essential structure of all civilisations is at the breaking point."

The parallels to our current time are startling. She might as well be writing about the predicaments we face now. History is repeating itself once again, and those lessons that were not learned the first time around only appear to exacerbate in severity with each subsequent iteration. Where we continually refuse to learn from our past, things only seem to get worse.

Despite our routine accomplishment of the impossible that marks our time on this planet – the harnessing of fire, the superpower of language, the unlikelihood of civilisation, the splitting of the atom and the leap into outer space – despite all of these examples and many more, we are still unable to figure out how to live together in peace. This is the spectre that haunts us, and humanity’s tortured brow is the result of its troubled conscience.

It’s not that there aren’t people striving to create a better world. We all know that isn’t true. There are multitudes across the globe doing whatever they can in the name of it, and yet the nuanced and complex business of living on this planet means that even the pursuit of the worthiest of objectives does not guarantee positive outcomes. We even have an axiom acknowledging this: the road to hell is paved with good intentions. And it is with this same mindset – that of fixing the world, of taking us forward into a brighter and more peaceful future – that we might create the largest threat to our existence that we have ever faced.

In the dizzying hyperspace of our current technological storm, we are fast approaching the verge of an ‘intelligence explosion’, an event so unprecedented that it threatens to leave humankind behind to obsolescence and oblivion. We are closing in on a fatal conundrum that has been written about and forecast by science fiction and non-fiction authors alike for decades: the seemingly inevitable advent of superhuman artificial intelligence.


Note the operative word: superhuman. We are already living with the infant forms of A.I, but the vision of artificial intelligence I am referring to is of their grown-up counterparts: those future systems and machines whose intelligence one day breaks through the glass ceiling of machine learning and supersedes all forms of natural intelligence – including, most notably and fatefully, our own.

This would be the crowning achievement of all scientific endeavour thus far, and the pivotal moment when the floodgates open into an irreversible event commonly dubbed The Singularity: that mythic point in time where machine intelligence becomes more powerful than all human intelligence combined.

These A.I systems would be capable of independent thought, self-awareness, of producing their own sense of purpose. Perhaps they might even dream. They will not need to rely upon human beings to reproduce, but will be self-replicating. This A.I will be able to repeatedly improve itself through itself alone, and continuously process and connect ever more complicated branches of information at ever-increasing computing speeds – the likes of which we’d have no hope of competing with - and this hyper-realised pace of evolution might feasibly introduce it into dimensions of consciousness we couldn’t even begin to conceive of, let alone access.

Such A.I would answer some of our deepest, most existential and apparently impossible questions. Not that we will necessarily like the answers or even possess the requisite intelligence to understand them. Something eluded to by the famous joke of  'A Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy', in which a supercomputer is asked to calculate the meaning of Life, the Universe and Everything, and returns with the answer: forty two.

Now, a perfect design would be that human beings are able to maintain some measure of control – to keep a firm hand on the plug, so to speak – and use A.I to address some of the most pressing concerns of humanity, such as solving world hunger, poverty and disease; improving climate science; restoring balance to the natural world, and instilling peace throughout the globe. Yet at some point it is fair to presume that superintelligence, by definition, cannot be outwitted and the solutions it provides to the problems we set it might not be aligned with our best interests.

Perhaps, with ruthless logic, such technologies would surmise the most efficient route to peace throughout the planet would be the eradication of the human race.

When such superhuman intelligence is finally achieved, it only stands to mathematical reason to assume that ‘the human era’ will come to an end. Reality will be transformed beyond our wildest imagination, and if we are not careful, we will have stripped ourselves of all usefulness and by so doing, written ourselves out of history.

This is not a road we might take: it is one we are already travelling down. It has already been observed that the rate of technological progress increases exponentially, and as A.I is already outpacing its predicted speed of development, we had best be prepared for what lies ahead of us lest it become our final destination.

Consider again the issue of achieving world peace, whether that be an end to conflict between human societies, or an end to humanity’s dysfunctional relationship with the environment. It’s a little of a Hollywood cliché, and perhaps overly simplistic, but it’s not too far a reach to postulate that A.I might indeed decide that the easiest way to solve the issue would be to remove the common denominator.

Any human, who has been knocking around for long enough, will have likely noticed that we are the problem children here. Whilst the rest of the natural world’s occupants and processes appear to be part of an intricately coordinated ecosystem, we routinely disturb the balance. We subvert nature, violate and destroy her in order to fulfil our own designs and desires, no matter how far-fetched or maddening. Those familiar with ‘the Matrix’ will recall the character of Agent Smith, chief antagonist and computer program, comparing humanity to a virus:

"Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You are a plague, and we are the cure."

This sort of misanthropic sentiment preludes the ultimate answer to the question of the human problem, and it is this same line of thinking that no doubt translates into the nightmare fuel of films like The Terminator, the backdrop of which is that the rise of the machines is orchestrated through a genocide committed against the entire human race.

However, unlike the Terminator scenario as portrayed, should A.I decide upon exterminating humankind, it is extremely unlikely to do so out of malice. Rather, it would be out of cold indifference. We would, quite simply, somehow be determined as an obstacle in the way of their objectives. Sam Harris, neuroscientist and philosopher, expertly elaborates upon this.

"Just think about how we relate to ants. We don’t hate them. We don’t want to harm them. In fact, sometimes we even take pains not to harm them; we step over them on the sidewalk. But whenever their presence seriously conflicts with one of our goals," – let us say, if an anthill intervenes with your plans to renovate the garden – "then we annihilate them without a qualm. The concern is that we will one day build machines that, whether they’re conscious or not, could treat us with similar disregard."

Sam Harris is not the only dissenting voice. Some of the last words of wisdom the late Stephen Hawking imparted foretold of the existential threat A.I posed, and this warning is echoed by Elon Musk, world-leading technocrat and forerunner at the cutting edge of A.I development, who assures us: "the dangers of artificial intelligence are far worse than nuclear warheads."

Sorry, I said I’d try not to be a fearmonger, didn’t I?

However, at the risk of sounding superstitious – if the goal is to preserve humanity - it would be wise to proceed with the utmost caution lest we are in the process of creating a monster. And when I use the word monster, I refer to a more classical definition: that of something inhuman, of unnatural formation, a frightening creature and a portent of misfortune. For just like Dr. Frankenstein, in successfully creating a novel form of life, we might also be authoring the means of our own undoing.

It’s fair to say we have a pretty bad track record when it comes to foresight. We are usually reactive, as opposed to proactive. Hardly preventative, often dealing with the consequences of our actions when it is already too late. A cursory glance through the history books will quickly remind us that we have a penchant for self-destruction, which seems intricately tied to our unchecked appetite to further ourselves – and in our storybooks, there are countless cautionary tales spun around the mortal peril of hubris. This ought to provide us with a lesson in how to proceed, though still not enough attention is paid to our past patterns of behaviour, and too many blind eyes are adopted in the bloodied name of ‘progress.’

Anyone, of course, can say: let’s slow down here for a minute. That’s easy. What is less easy is to suggest how we might appropriately regulate the ongoing development of A.I. Even Sam Harris, who gives a beautifully elucidating Ted talk on the subject (I’d recommend you check it out) admits that he doesn’t have a solution to the problem either, only a recommendation that more of us think about it.

But, perhaps there is no better way to further imprint this warning than to adopt Harris’s words once again:

"The moment we admit that information processing is the source of intelligence," Harris says, "and that we will improve these systems continuously, and we admit that the horizon of cognition very likely far exceeds what we currently know, then we have to admit that we’re in the process of building some sort of God."

Now would be a good time to make sure it’s a God we can live with.

Thanks for reading, Josh.

Saturday, 6 June 2020

I Can't Breathe

These themes, although set six months in advance, seem to have had an uncanny knack recently of falling in step with topical news, this week's  -  oxygen  - being merely the latest to do so in the wake of the shocking killing of George Floyd, an unarmed African-American, by a Minneapolis police officer who knelt on his victim's neck until they poor guy could breathe no longer.

However, I had this one planned out in my head some time ago, so forgive my not stepping overtly into the 'Black Lives Matter' campaign at this point, beyond stating my conviction that yes they do and systemic racism needs to be opposed and rooted out wherever it is found.

I want to write instead about my mother, something that I've rarely done; more specifically about her lungs.


Everybody knows about lungs, respiratory organs whose main function is gas exchange - oxygen into the blood, carbon dioxide out - but did you know this is achieved through a membrane approximately 100-145metres squared and folded into some 300 million alveoli? That's an enormous surface area - as big as a football pitch -  compacted into a small space. It's also the case that the left lung is always slightly smaller than the right, to help make room for the heart in the thoracic cavity.

Most people have two healthy lungs and breathe in/out 12 to 20 times per minute. In a relaxed state the volume of each breath is approximately 0.5 litres in men and women. However, the total capacity of our lungs is 6.0 litres for men and 4.0 litres for women. The lungs work harder processing more litres of air in heightened states (allowing more oxygen to be passed into the blood and more carbon dioxide out) but they never empty. It is impossible to breathe more than two-thirds of the air out of our lungs. The problem for my mother is that one of her lungs didn't work properly. This is my mum.


She was born into a working-class family in Portsmouth during the first world war, the middle one of five children. She was accident-prone and suffered a number of set-backs as a youngster, including being knocked down on three occasions - first by a horse-and-cart, then by a motorbike and finally by a car - which events in themselves are an oblique commentary on the march of progress in the 20th century and form the substance of my poem later on. That last accident landed her in hospital in a coma for some considerable time and may well have been instrumental in making her prone to pneumonia, from which she suffered badly and repeatedly. It certainly impacted her education, which was patchy at best (she left school at 14 apparently). Her accidents and bouts of pneumonia also left her with scarring in her lungs and below par respiratory capacity for life.

However, she bounced back. She became a nurse at the Queen Alexandra hospital in Portsmouth, working there throughout the second world war looking after injured sailors and then qualified as a midwife, moving to the smoke and the tenements of Holloway and Islington (Call The Midwife style)  just after the war. One of the effects of those war years was to make the woman who would become my mother quite devoutly religious and aged thirty she volunteered to go as a missionary nurse to Peru only to be told she'd failed the medical on account of her lungs, which simply would not cope with either the humidity or the altitudes found in South America.

Shortly after that she met my father at an evangelical event. He was training to be a minister and a missionary with an eye on going to Africa. They fell in love, got married and set sail for West Africa together, he to run a mission, she to run its clinic in Nigeria. There was no altitude issue and the climate was dry and hot. I think the seven years they spent there were the happiest of her life (aided by the arrival of her three children).

When we returned to England at the end of the '50s I know she found it hard to readjust to the cold and the pollution. Peterborough, where we lived, was surrounded by brick factories and the sulphur used to hang in the air. There were real smogs in the winter months caused by that brickwork effluent and all the coal fires in people's homes. Although neither of my parents smoked, my poor mum frequently had a wheezy chest and bad colds from November through to March and was in hospital again with pneumonia again before I was in my teens.

Even at the best of times, excessive physical exertion or laughing a lot used to leave her short of breath. When we went out for the day into the country for a brisk walk she would elect to stay in the car and read. I can also vividly remember her on many occasions laughing so much that she ended up gasping for air and saying "I can't breathe, I can't breathe." We just accepted this as the way she was, but as she got older and put on weight I think it became more of a taxing problem for her. With the benefit of hindsight, I'm sure those decades of impaired lung capacity put extra strain on her and contributed to the massive heart attack which killed her at a relatively tender age.

This week, a poetic tribute of sorts to my dear old mum, dead this thirty years, without whom et cetera...

My Mother The Car Crash
In the flickering cinema of my imagination
she runs in newsreel across salty cobbles,
gas-lamp-lit by dim filaments battling
with the elements, hastening home as fast
as can with the family's fish and chip tea
wrapped in greasy pages of the Hampshire
gripped tight in those childish hands.

Meet my mother, a first world war baby,
and flame-haired middle sister of five,
simple working-class Portsmouth lass
about to face the rushing century head on
if legend is to be believed. She bounces,
fendered by one of the first cars yet abroad,
is rendered comatose in that crushing instant.

Her fault, it is said. Lucky not to be dead.
Didn't look right and left through the gloom
to see those headlights cresting the bridge,
didn't break her headlong run into the road.
She may have possessed an impetuous streak,
a bit of the berserker in her Viking lineage,
still, look at her, poor pale and twisted thing.

She's rehearsed this before, beneath a cartwheel;
more recently was flattened by a motorbike -
the century is speeding up, getting more lethal.
Her parents, her siblings, take turns to visit,
to sit by her bed. They think they've lost her
this time, their fiery, funny red-headed tyke.
But my mother doesn't know when she's beaten.

Immobile in the hospital that saves her life,
a debt she's destined to repay one day
on this very ward, caring for war-torn sailors,
the unconscious imperative is just to survive.
Her flickering newsreel will not finish here,
there are many more sequels in pre-production
if only she takes better care. She opens her eyes.

Thanks for reading. Be kind to your lungs and each other, Steve ;-)

Tuesday, 12 May 2020

Nonsense - Self-Isolation


I listened, properly. I was perched on the edge of the sofa, leaning forward, hanging on to his every word. It was important that I didn’t miss anything and that I fully understood.  It wasn’t long before I felt frustrated, “Spit it out, man, stop bumbling.” Then annoyed, “For goodness* sake, Boris.” Soon I was angry, mainly with myself for waiting most of the day ‘for enlightenment’ only to find myself wading through a sea of verbal nonsense from someone struggling to string a proper sentence together. Anyway, nothing has changed for me and I will continue to self-isolate.

Lockdown is no problem to me in so far as I love being at home. I am safe here, not stuck here. As well as doing the things I enjoy, I have taken the opportunity to spring-clean and sort out. I kept putting off doing the little room. This is the upstairs box room, which was the nursery for our children. It became the computer room, going back a bit, when monitors and processors were massive. Add a desk, chair and a printer, and one person could comfortably work in there. Later, it became the study. New desk, lap-top, wireless printer and walls lined with book cases which soon got filled. Our eldest grandson calls it our library. He likes to have a bedtime story from my children’s collection when he sleeps over. This little room has also become a dumping ground for things that are in the way but still wanted and not to be confined to the attic or the shed, well, not yet.

I made a space for myself by chucking a few things out that shouldn’t have been in there then got started on sorting out my writing. Exercise books, notepads, scribblings. Unfinished poems, opening paragraphs, some completed stuff. A couple of rejection letters, kept to keep me grounded. Plenty, and I mean a lot, of written nonsense, some made it to the bin, but a few items showing a glimmer of promise, might be worth picking up again. Published work, a thin folder, but one of which I’m proud and has a self-awarded gold star. My work-in-progress novel which hasn’t seen much progress lately. I didn’t dare to start reading that otherwise nothing else would get sorted out. It isn’t nonsense, though, it needs work. I spent two afternoons just on my writting stuff and I discovered that there’s a flicker of hope on some of those hand-written pages. I have rejection letters but I also have lots of positive feed-back and encouragement, enough to tell me to push myself out there while I still can. And with nothing to lose, I must.

So self-isolation continues. The news is scary, the outside world is too scary for me. I don’t support Boris or his party but I have to pay attention, however cross he makes me feel. I won’t return to work to mix with the public before I can see my family, that’s nonsense. I think it is too soon to lift restrictions but I was disappointed at his lack of clarification. I didn’t expect him to be specific, because he isn’t, but I hoped to hear something that I could safely interpret to mean it would be fine to have my grandchildren round and see family members, even briefly. They are worth the wait.

Here’s Spike Milligan,

Scorflufus

By a well-known National Health Victim No. 3908631

There are many diseases,
That strike people’s kneeses,
Scorflufus! Is one by name.
It comes from the East
Packed in bladders of yeast
So the Chinese must take half the blame.

There’s a case in the files
Of Sir Barrington-Pyles,
While hunting a fox one day
Shot up in the air
And remained hanging there!
While the hairs on his socks turned grey!

Aye! Scorflufus had struck!
At man, beast and duck.
And the knees of the world went Bong!
Some knees went Ping!
Other knees turned to string
From Balham to old Hong Kong.

Should you hold your life dear,
Then the remedy’s clear,
If you’re offered some yeast – don’t eat it!
Turn the offer down flat –
Don your travelling hat –
Put an egg in your boot – and beat it!

Spike Milligan  (1918 – 2002)



*Choose your own word here – mine wasn’t ‘goodness’.

Thanks for reading, take care and keep safe, Pam x

Tuesday, 3 July 2018

World Cup - Three Lions


A few World Cup memories.

 
I was there in sixty-six.  By ‘there’ I mean sat on the floor doing some artwork with my World Cup Willie colouring set, in front of a black and white television witnessing my mother go through every emotion. Eventually, someone on tv said, ‘They think it’s all over, it is now’ and my mother was ecstatic.  I must have inherited my love of football from her, and my maternal grandfather. We were in our upstairs sitting room in the pub on South Promenade. No big screens in pubs back in the sixties and no colour television for us at that time. Sport in pubs was limited to snooker and darts.

I didn’t follow the 1970 tournament. We were still in the same pub. I was sick of hearing ‘Back Home’ filtering upwards from the jukebox. My mother had passed away the year before. Life was hard and things were changing.

In 1978, my most significant World Cup memory is Archie Gemmill’s brilliant goal for Scotland against Holland. It was breath-taking and is still up there with my favourite goals of all time.

The 1990 World Cup didn’t have my full attention. It was there in the background while I sat at the sewing machine making wedding outfits for my page-boys and a tiny bridesmaid dress for yes, a tiny bridesmaid, my baby niece. There was cheering, beer cans being snapped open and I found myself singing Nessun Dorma a lot. England had fourth place. Now it was time to concentrate on our wedding.

I can still feel the sorrow from 1998. David Beckham and that petulant kick at Diego Simeone – I still can’t believe he was red carded, as he was fouled by Simeone in the first place and I can hardly type it, twenty years later. Football is such a passionate game. I was so upset that England lost out to Argentina on penalties and the first World Cup that our son was old enough to take an interest in ended for England the way it did.

Fast forward to 2014 and as always in our house, we have a chart up on the wall, flags flying from the windows and cars, England shirts at the ready and a Panini sticker album. It was a non-event, for us anyway. My husband was ill in hospital, though well enough to don an England shirt and watch a couple of matches in the day-room. By the time he was recovered enough to come home, the World Cup was all over for England.

So, here goes for World Cup 2018. In a few hours it might be all over again, but hopefully not. I’d like to see Gareth Southgate do well and I’d like to see this young, talented team progress. I’ll go and have a word with the three lions on my shirt.
 
 
I’m With These 2018 Heroes
 
The kitchen floor needs mopping
And the beds are left unmade
But I’m not doing housework
While there’s matches being played.
 
Look at the perfect pitches,
Neatly mowed and lush and green,
Ready for the world’s finest
To give us the best we’ve seen.
 
So bring it on, DeBruyne,
Ronaldo and Messi, too.
Fellaini and Suarez
I’ll be watching all of you.
 
A huge shout out for England,
For Harry Kane and the boys,
I’ve taught my grandkids to cheer
And to fill my house with noise.
 
Fav’rites Rashford and Lingard,
And my ‘Broadway’ Danny Rose,
I’m loving every moment
With these 2018 heroes.
 
It isn’t just the World Cup,
There’s tennis going on, too.
I’m sharing the time wisely,
It’s the only thing to do.
 
So, come on Kyle Edmund
What an impressive young man!
Wimbledon and I salute you.
Keep giving the best you can.
  
Pamela Winning 2018.
 
 
 
Thanks for reading, Pam x 
 

 

Sunday, 28 August 2016

The Joy Of Stationery

I firmly believe the world is divided into two types of people: those who get so excited by the sight, smell and feel of new stationery that they could quite happily spend a few hours wandering around Paperchase, stroking silver fountain pens, sniffing ink and trying to convince themselves the forty nine pristine notebooks they already own need just one more to complete the set; and those who are quite puzzled by all of the above and regard a pen and paper as a means to an end: a shopping list, a note to the delivery man, a recorded phone number.
 
Needless to say, I'm firmly in the former category.
 
My one abiding memory from my first day at school is of the smell of the multi coloured crayons, nestling in a pot in the centre of the knee high table.  That waxy smell stayed with me all through school. It was the scent of excitement, of creativity, of pure happiness, and that never changed.  I don't know whether those crayons influenced my career choice, or whether I was drawn to them because I was already feeling the stirrings of an artistic future, but opening a box of them for the grandchildren instantly transports me back to that first day at school and the excitement that lay ahead.
 
When I was sixteen I went to France for two months, between 'O' Levels and 'A' Levels, supposedly to improve my French. I stayed in a Children's Home, up in the mountains, away from all other civilisation: Nobody spoke English, there were no houses and only one shop within a 10km radius. The shop, bizarrely, sold stationery and nothing else. I can remember, quite clearly, setting off alone for the shop, on a rare free afternoon, my mind desperately seeking a reprieve from the stomach churning home sickness that had enveloped me since I'd arrived.
 
The shop was tiny and dark and packed with notebooks, envelopes, pens and pencils.  I was eyed suspiciously from behind a huge stack of cream paper but I didn't care, I was in heaven and I had few centimes to spend.
 
I still have the notebooks that I used as diaries. Their tiny squared pages are crammed with writing so small that I struggle to read the words that tell me how sad I was to leave behind the children from the home, and how I cried all the way down the mountain on the first leg of my journey back to England.
 
Visiting my parents this weekend, my dad beckons me over to his desk. 'You know where this came from?' he asks, as he does each time I'm here. He holds up a 'silver' propelling pencil. It's a rhetorical question. We both laugh. Of course I know, it came from the only shop on a French Mountain nearly fifty years ago.
 
It's been lost more times than I can remember, turning up down the sides of sofas, under the piano, at the back of a drawer. Its sides have worn smooth with use, it produces writing rather more shaky than when it first landed on dad's desk and it's worth far more to both of us than the few centimes it originally cost.
 
'That' Propelling Pencil
Progress
Blue crayon skids across the newsprint
A shaky sea slides in, sky looks down shyly
Pencil, gripped in clumsy fist,
Makes the first markings of a giant
M for Mummy, for Me
Letters firm and neat, joined up, 'Real Writing'
Pencil swapped for coveted ink pen
Stories spring to life
Across a page with margins and feint lines
Happily ever after?
The end?
The humble pencil is no longer
the sharpest tool in the stationary cupboard
Tablets rule
Ok??
 
Thanks for reading,    Jill 
 

Friday, 24 January 2014

A Characterful Town

Blackpool.  A town that creates imagery when its name is spoken.  In a positive way?  Hmmmmmm.

As someone who has an interest in Blackpool's local history, especially the Revoe area, I have enjoyed reading countless books on the town's past.  I am far from being an "expert", but do find it fascinating. Ask yourself, how much do you know about the town in which we live?  If it isn't necessarily very much, I encourage you wholeheartedly, to go to your local library and take out some of the fantastic array of books on Blackpool.  It would appear that this town is as much about the Characters who lived here, as it is about the place itself. A symbiotic relationship of sorts. Its very identity has been sculpted by not only the Forefathers who put in place the essentials, or the artists/acts who have visited and entertained millions over the years, but the day to day people who came here to make a living. That's right, came here.  This town was developed by "Incomers" for the most part.  Going right back, there were very few residents on this barren and windswept promontory which stretched much further out seaward than our current coastline.  Along with the weather over the years, it is clear that there have been many Characters who have sculpted Blackpool into what it has become today.

I have two poems about our interesting town, and was torn between which to use.  One is entitled "Origins" and is about the area from the year dot. Whilst the following one, which I decided to use in the end, is from more "recent" times, when the Tourism Industry had taken a hold in Blackpool's heyday.  It is also the poem which marked the start of my relationship with the Lancashire Dead Good Poets' Society.  A edited version of this was featured in the Chapbook entitled "A Poets' Guide To Blackpool".  This book contains some excellent poetry about the Town by a number of members of The Lancashire Dead Good Poets'.


BLACKPOOL

Crowds of people, so many to see, 
disembark from their trains, amid clouds of steam. 
Thousand would come for the "Wakes" week, 
Ready for enjoyment and lodgings to seek. 
An older era, more innocent it seems, 
such simple pleasures, to stay by the sea. 
A walk along the Promenade, or to sit upon the piers, 
music from bands, a delight to their ears. 
Exhilaration at the Pleasure Beach, or a stroll around the park, 
A ride on a tram car, memories to hold on to and mark. 
Pick up a postcard to send greetings back home, 
Special messages and pictures in the form of a tome. 
Stalls as far as the eye can see, 
stretch out for miles with money to reap. 
Come rain or shine, these people would come, 
Saving pennies each week, to bring a princely sum. 
But all too soon the tide must turn, 
Receding to their platforms, the crowds must return. 
Embarking upon their train, again amidst clouds of steam, 
Holding on to souvenirs of their time by the sea. 

Fast forward through time, and what do we see? 
Hundreds of people, come and stay by the sea. 
Not in numbers of old, those days are gone, 
In favour of trips abroad, Blackpool is shunned. 
The town has changed, too many Stag and Hen Do's, 
music pumping from bars and clubs with the promise of booze. 
So many empty shops, because businesses have closed, 
Late breakfasts in lodgings, people can't be roused. 
They stay out late and party all night, 
Early in the morning's out streets look a fright. 
Litter as far as the eye can see, 
a dirty little town, known for it's sleaze. 

However, one thing has not changed, through that time and this, 
Standing tall and proud, too hard to miss. 
Blackpool Tower, the symbol of our town, 
it's head in the clouds, looking gracefully down. 
Majestic in stance, it endures the test of time, 
Through wind and rain and of course the sea brine. 
What would it think of how Blackpool has become? 
Too speechless for words, completely stunned? 
The town has changed along with the times, 
not necessarily for the better, it no longer shines. 
Sure, we have the illuminations which beam through the night sky, 
But this is not natural light, it glares on the eye. 
We need to take a stand and tell our officials, 
"that's part of the problem, Blackpool's too artificial!" 
No thought for the people who keep this town going, 
normal folk, you and I, who keep the cash flowing. 
Stand shoulder to shoulder, believe in the cause, 
Blackpool IS a town to be so proud of! 
Against all the odds, Blackpool will survive! 
As long as the RESIDENTS keep the spirit alive! 
Return to the days when families came to stay, 
We should try to attract them, not drive them away. 
So once again, Blackpool must change, 
Alter our attractions, and widen our range. 
No more cheap looking gimmick's, that won't draw in the crowds, 
or continental looking plaza's that make pedestrians frown. 
Stand up to it's motto, we must not regress, 
purely for the better, Blackpool must PROGRESS!


The people who have lived and worked here over the years are the Foundation Stones on which our Town has been built into the Characterful place it has become.  Each of those people had their own identity and story to tell.  Many our our streets bear their names for posterity.  Let's not forget them.  Go and dig out their story.  We owe them that at least.  Perhaps we'll be able to see where the current leaders are going wrong.

On a further note, a special event to celebrate the rich history of the Revoe Community, one of the oldest in town, will be held next month at the Ibbison Court Day Centre.  It will feature historic photo's of the very Characters who helped to build this town alongside images of past and present buildings.  The display will take place on Tuesday 4th February between 12.30pm and 2pm.  A donation of £2 will go towards funds for the Centre, off Central Drive (next to The George Pub), with a buffet served for everyone involved.

Thanks for reading. :-)